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I finally got an appointment booked with a half-way decent neurologist! Just 100 days away....

#stroke #survival #survivor #neurology #brain


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There’s a lot of cultural messaging that says part time work isn’t good enough. And a lot of it really comes down to a narrow focus on productivity, as the only measure for personal worth.

That framework is destructive, inhumane, and inaccurate.

#Autistic #ActuallyAutistic #Neurodivergent #Neurodiverse #Acceptance #Understanding

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I can set my content filter to do away with all the P/politics. yay,




I like using porridge oats in savory recipes. Today it was a curried/spiced mince and mixed vegetables mixed in with porridge oats. The kind of thing where you might put rice if you are aiming for a biriyani kind of thing but not. maybe a spicy risotto even?


A lot of baseball going on down by the river. Not by me though.

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we're seeing unprecedented wackiness levels

(97%) ■■■■■■■■■□

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Things that are often labeled as “complaining”, or “attention seeking”, or “difficult behaviors”, might be the only way that a person knows to communicate that something hurts them.

#ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD #Autistic #NeuroDivergent #Neurodiversity

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No matter what I do, bang! 3am. I'm awake. Think it my be some weird circadian rhythm #stroke thing.
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@plan-A I've been like this for months. Years really, but the 3am pattern is new and weird.


The answer to my book record keeping is likely to be calibre-web. I just need a server.
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@plan-A I've got out working on the LAN. So that's something. Ready easy to set up. Shockingly so!! It's WAN access in struggling with because the cheap router we've been set up with has nobway of opening ports. Plus services like Tailscale run as vpn on Android and that means I have to switch off my usual vpn to use it. It's just a little too much friction than I need.

It's fun to much about with though.



Today was a #succes. Cycled. Sorted books. Read some stuff.


Today I think I will win by riding my #bike. A quiet route with no motor vehicles. It's cooler today and I have no pressing plans. I hope this stops my #brain from eating itself with #anxiety and #fear!


I think I have finally cleaned up my book data. I can now stare at a spreadsheet and be reasonably happy with it for the moment.



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Microsoft:
Thank you for contacting Microsoft help. We realise that you are having issues banging your head against a brick wall.

Please can you ensure that you have updated "wall" to the latest version, and no we will not tell you how. or where to download it, or even if its compatible with your "head"

If you encounter errors using the 2025 version of "wall" try this article from 2021 that covers a completely different issue.

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@zer0unplanned It does make you wonder what Remove-module actually does, as it only has one job 😀
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@zer0unplanned I've been dealing with MS products for 35+ years, I'm used to not believing anything it tells me it's done, without proving it for myself. 😀




It makes sense to sit by the #river and drink mediocre coffee for free, than spend #money I don't have on #travel to a place that's too loud and #overstimulating to drink #mediocre #coffee for a price I can't #afford.

#autism #recovery #stroke #mentalhealth



I have been fighting with #bookwyrm as a solution to recording my #reading and #book data. It is a little #disappointing. I want to use it, but for me (mass importing of data) it is too time consuming going through hundreds of entries that are either "slightly" different from what currently exists on the service, or is not on any instance networked and therefore throw up import errors.

Thing is, you look at what you've got and think: "That's correct data there, I've checked against multiple sources and all the names, authors and ISBNs are correct. Why can't I just push a button and import it all? I mean it's better than what is being suggested to me at present. Why is that <random book> appearing six times on my list against book I know are okay?"

A morning wasted. I don't need a solution, I have an alternative that isn't #goodreads or bookwyrm. But you try and support or use something and it's... It's like me having to recompile a Linux v2.2 kernel to get USB support around 2000-2001.

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Personally I believe that recompiling the Linux Kernel is easier. 🙂🙃😉


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@actuallyautistic @autistics #ActuallyAutistic been standing in line for over and hour and people just keep walking past and bumping into me as if i’m not standing here…

…same thing happens when i’m talking to people…

i’m sorry, is my existence too much for you to acknowledge?

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That is guaranteed to wind me up to the point of explosive meltdown.

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@pathfinder a couple wound up sitting next to me and renewed my faith in humanity

very kind and respectful of personal space

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Repeat after me:
You don't need a Boox Go 7 e-reader because you already have too many e-ink devices and you won't use it.

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Note to myself


No not the Prather #book..

It all worked out. The #anxiety turned into a solid plan that kept me on time on track and on course. I got what I needed. It didn't cost quite as much as I #feared. I still have #energy left and I wasn't #exhausted physically or #mentally (though I did have to stop and regroup a couple of times).

Small wins.

I had an insanely good #coffee, and hammered out about 4 pages worth of thoughts. BY HAND. Writing by hand is #liberating. If you keep your #writing "reasonably" neat you can OCR it into a digital document later. Well, I OCR it. Very useful.



Decided against making the call. I can do it later when I have more information from other sources.


Reframing success


- “Am I #healing with integrity?”

- “Am I being honest with myself and others?”

- “Am I resisting the trap of pretending I’m fine when I’m not?”

#mentalhealth #wellness #wellnesswednesday (it's Wednesday where I am now)


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@bookstodon Another comic I read when it came out, but I thought it was time to reread it. So this arrived today.
The 12 issues were collected two and two and published in six issues in Sweden, I own a mix of them, but not all.

#Watchmen #Comics

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Drink less #coffee you'll feel less #anxious

#nope. #lies I tell you!!

(possibly linked to me expressing an opinion in public)

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I do not believe there is such a thing as to much coffee. 😁


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The skies here have been uncharacteristically clear for this time of year. I returned to Flinders Blowhole on Monday evening and captured this image of the Milky Way rising over coast and Bass Strait. #photography #astrophotography #seascape #milkyway

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Possibly my one and only post on P/politics


Speaking of #anxiety, #mentalhealth and so on.... I must profess to being in the minority when it comes to [the current year].

Or any year.

I've been disillusioned for the better part of the last 30 years. I do not want to "engage" with 'Big P' Politics, or 'small p' politics.

I'm struggling to get support and services for the injuries I suffered from a stroke. You know, typing and using your hands, not being perpetually exhausted, being able to see things in focus, not being over-stimulated by movement or sound (autistic readers are nodding sagely round about now...). It's taking up a lot of my mental time, energy and strength just surviving.

As a wise man once said, "I'm too old for this shit".

I may post some writing if I'm not feeling shy.

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@plan-A Cheers! I'm slowly reaching out and finding my space. Nice to meet you btw.


The amount of anxiety caused by needing to make a phone call 5 hours from now, is mental. #autism #anxiety #social

Possibly because it "may" impact my ability to catch a train at a specific time.

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Breaking Free From Anxiety's Biggest Lies

youtube.com/watch?v=akdVGQ2SEk…

#ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD #Neurospicy #Neurodivergent #ND

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I don't have google services running on my phone, so I can't use Racoon for Friendica. Tried. Didn't want to run. Currently using Fedilab but wondering about Tusky etc. Can't decide.
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@plan-A checking out Husky. Dandelion crashes.




Writing


I have started writing. It's not for anyone. It's a process. Words on a page, either typed or scrawled for me alone.

Maybe there is an audience, a reader outside my skull? I don't know yet.



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Love them or hate them, roundabouts are safer than traffic signals and stop signs.

theconversation.com/what-are-r…

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marginalia-search.com/

I need to spend more time looking into alternative searches.

The "web" went from SEO blogspam to AI slop in the blink of an eye and it turned functionally useless to literally pointless in moments. #NewYorkMinute

Perhaps that was the point though?


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A body is just a single occupancy haunted house.

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At all times everyone knows the exact location of at least one spooky skeleton