Thought(s) for the day
The “everything’s ending and it’s my fault” feeling is a chemical lie, not a personal truth.
Allegedly.
It seems that being prescribed Clotiazepam for anxiety has it's positives and negatives.
File under: Things the hospital didn't tell me.
I've been on this stuff for seven months.
Clotiazepam is a class of drug called “thienodiazepines”. It is chemically similar to benzodiazepine.
Side effect include insomnia, rebound anxiety, dizziness etc etc etc.
I'm trying to taper off them now like I did venlafaxine. DON'T DO THAT DRUG.
Would explain a lot of things to do with my moods because I thought they weren't that effective. Except just stopping them has screwed me up. Go me!
Had to stop using e-ink phone. Software issues. Went back to "trying" to read on a "normal" phone.
God it's shit. E-ink has spoilt me!!
Busy morning
Let’s reflect on what I did this morning:
- ADB shell dumps of system & user apps on Android,
- Blocked SystemUI network traffic and monitored overall stability,
- Reverse-engineered APKs looking for HTTP beacons and hardcoded IPs, because spyware....
- Used VirusTotal + Hybrid Analysis to sandbox vendor .apks,
- Correlated IPs with ASN, location, and possible service origin, then isolated and blocked them,
- Avoided 'Google Play Protect' despite pressure, preserving system integrity against thread model and previous security hardening,
- Assessed potential psyops or disinfo campaigns online sparking user doubt in specific vendor hardware.
I need a drink.
I finally got a timely #stroke rehabilitation appointment scheduled. Only took 6 months post-discharge.
Whatever #recovery I have had so far has been self-induced. And whatever #symptoms I currently have should have been supported by the medical profession but weren't. Things are slowly changing though.
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SERIFS
All I want is to use serif fonts. BUT NOOOOOO. It breaks this and other sites.
ANY SUGGESTIONS ON SERIF FONTS THAT DON'T SCREW UP "designer's choices?"
Pic very much related. One is "normal" the other is with a serif font style forced onto Friendica via "stylus". Because forcing it is the only way apparently.
You will find that there is a Help selection in the Main Context menu. It has a section that describes BBcode. This of course only effects posts. If you want to change the way the Friendica interface looks then you can look into Settings -> Display -> Themes and Settings -> Display -> Theme customization. There is no reason to try to force anything. Please just refer to the Help Menu.
If you find a Theme for Friendica that you like and I do not have it installed then let me know and I can install it for you. I have all the standard themes and an extra one called Bookface that I set as the default, though you can change that.
@unusnemo I found one in here that looks plain and simple: paper.
git.friendi.ca/friendica/theme…
I imagine it is probably out of date though.
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I looked into it and installed some of those community themes. Unfortunately they are very old and unmaintained. They do not support a lot of the new interfaces on Friendica. It would take a major amount of work to get them up to date which is something I do not have time to do at the moment.
If you want to work on one and get it up to date I would be happy to install it. For right now I am concerned that if I install one it will confuse some of the members if they try to use them and it just makes a mess out of their interface that is not very usable.
If you are just looking for a few tweaks to Frio or Vier then you could follow the instructions on the Friendica Theme site to modify theme and I could add it as a scheme to them or revision.
It is a lot of work building and modifying themes and some people love it and spend a lot of time working on such. I spend more time on functionality and leave theme implementation to those UI/ UX so called experts in most cases 😉. I will eventually work on a theme for RogueProject though that is a very low priority with so many other more important things (such as debugging the friendica code base) to get done.
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Greek Mythology for Kids: Enthralling Greek Myths, Stories, and Legends of Gods, Goddesses, and Mythological Creatures by Billy Wellman, 2025
Why do we still tell the stories of ancient Greek myths today?
Why are there so many books, movies, and games based on these legendary tales?
The answer is simple—Greek myths are packed with adventure, magic, and lessons that are just as exciting now as they were thousands of years ago!
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#books
#JuvenileNonfiction
#GreekMythology
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This looks great. I'm also a big fan of Heroes, Gods, and Monsters of the Greek Myths by Bernard Evslin. It does not stint on the tragic nature of many of the stories, does not moralize or talk down, and is a model of clear, engaging prose.
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Under the direction of Roy Willis, nineteen leading scholars navigate a clear path through the complexities of myth by distilling the essence of each regional tradition and focusing on the most significant figures and enthralling stories. Selected mythical episodes include - the downfall of gods and demons, stories of revenge and metamorphosis, tales of doomed love and travels to the Underworld.
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There are highly useful summaries of theories about the origins and meaning of myth, plus an examination of themes that recur across a range of civilizations. Superbly illustrated with more than 500 colour photographs, artworks, charts and maps, this is the most accessible guide yet produced to the limitless heritage of the world's imagination.
openlibrary.org/books/OL139569…
World mythology by Roy G. Willis | Open Library
World mythology by Roy G. Willis, 1993, H. Holt edition, in English - 1st ed.Open Library
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"practicing applied shamanism — under fluorescent lights."
Made me chuckle. Could be a tautology.
I cannot describe how utterly.... rage inducingly disappointingly shite "A short stay in hell" by Steven Peck is.
Really? Existential dread? The horror of hell? Really?
Waste of my time that's what it was. I have never come away from a book feeling so utterly irritated.
"Insultingly provincial" is the best description I've seen.
"Running Scared" Sums it up: youtube.com/watch?v=h_5tmnfdMT…
This is real shit (Running Scared)
Running Scared (1986) starring Gregory Hines and Billy CrystalYouTube
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Since having this #stroke my mood swings between "I feel abandoned why won't anyone fix me" to "this is how I am now, I had best get on with it".
In both cases it is a constant battle every day:
Planning, energy levels, #spoons and all that. Every little thing needs accounting for and explicitly prepping.
Thinking about what I can or should achieve, how far I can go, what timings are. All these little things that you'd take for granted. Add to that a language and cultural barrier that has hampered my recovery and left me constantly on edge and in fear of my life (in case I relapse and suddenly fall over dead) and I'm tired.
The End of the Megamachine A Brief History of a Failing Civilization by Fabian Scheidler, 2020
"A must read for everyone rising against the system that is destroying life on earth and our future." Vandana Shiva, World Future Council
The End of the Megamachine provides a uniquely comprehensive picture of the roots of the destructive forces that are threatening the future of humankind today.
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#books
#nonfiction
#history
#civilisation
#collapse
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It's commonly said that #autistic people get along really well with each other, as evidenced by the fact that if you're autistic, there's a good chance at least 80% of your friend group is too. While that's often true, what nobody in the #actuallyautistic community really likes to talk about is that when you meet another autistic person, you're either going to get along swimmingly (whether you share any interests or not) or you're going to hate each other, there's basically no in between, and you can tell almost immediately which it's going to be.
To quote a Tumblr post: "once you meet someone 1% more autistic than you, it's on sight." You read that and think "hey, 'more autistic' is an outdated and kind of offensive way of looking at autism, and there's no way it really works like that," and then you meet someone 1% worse at masking than you and immediately think to yourself If I Have To Be In This Person's Company For 1 More Second I Am Going To Explode
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I don't think it's about masking, or an "amount" of autism, however you'd want to measure that.
There are traits that someone can have, that people associate with autism, but that aren't inherent to autism.
Autism and ADHD for example can be diagnosed seperately nowadays, but that doesn't mean that people clearly seperate between the traits.
If one person is hyper- and one is hyposensitive to smell for example(both autistic traits), who is "more autistic"?
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For me personally I can say that I'm "below average", when it comes to narcissistic traits(which seems to be typical for autism), which usually makes me not get along with people who are more narcissistic, even if they are also autistic.
But narcissistic traits are often conflated with autistic traits to the point, where celebrities use suspected autism as an excuse for narcissistic behavior and get away with it.
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There’s a lot of cultural messaging that says part time work isn’t good enough. And a lot of it really comes down to a narrow focus on productivity, as the only measure for personal worth.
That framework is destructive, inhumane, and inaccurate.
#Autistic #ActuallyAutistic #Neurodivergent #Neurodiverse #Acceptance #Understanding
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Cycling again is good.
#mentalhealthactivities #mentalhealth #stroke #recovery #fitness #energy #endurance #movement
Things that are often labeled as “complaining”, or “attention seeking”, or “difficult behaviors”, might be the only way that a person knows to communicate that something hurts them.
#ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD #Autistic #NeuroDivergent #Neurodiversity
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@Heather Cook🖖Autistic Coach This is so important to understand. Especially if you care for younger people on the spectrum.
#ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD #Autistic #NeuroDivergent #neurodiversity
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@plan-A I've got out working on the LAN. So that's something. Ready easy to set up. Shockingly so!! It's WAN access in struggling with because the cheap router we've been set up with has nobway of opening ports. Plus services like Tailscale run as vpn on Android and that means I have to switch off my usual vpn to use it. It's just a little too much friction than I need.
It's fun to much about with though.
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in reply to Cee75 • •I get kind of same (which of now all of the sudden they want to break down usage piece by piece) named Diazepam. for Anxiety. I take just 1 of the 2/day sometimes not. Depends the stress level..
Now that is really another thing yet also addictive and those effects as dizziness and rest never had. They 10 mg max/pill.
For sleep there is Lormetazepam, the dosed in smaller milllgrams such as 2 max or 1mg/pill but 1mg take it and lay down> close your eyes and you gone before you know.